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Right Fucking Now

Your big dream doesn’t matter to me as much as your big right now.
Right now is where you are.
It’s what you feel.
It’s what you think.
It’s who you are.
And if all that isn’t what you want, than it can change.
Right now.
If you want it to.
If you are willing.

You don’t have to wait until some project is done.
Until some big dream is chased down.
Until you’ve proven this or that.
You don’t have to wait to step out of the stories.
To get into a new groove.
To know your power.
To know who you are.

This moment…right fucking now…you can end the war.
You can stop with the wondering if you are worthy.
If you are good enough.
If you are too much.
You can, right now, have an amazing human experience.
You can, right now, know the truth.
You can know you are whole.
Unbroken.
YOU.

You don’t need a big far away dream to make that happen.
In fact, no amount of doing will ever make you good enough.
No act of creation will ever fix you.
The whole notion that you can ever prove your worth is ridiculous.
There is no fixing what is not broken.

You can spend your life chasing after yourself, hoping that one day in the near or far future you will find the self you hope you could be.
Or you could show up in this moment.
Because too fucking often people chase big dreams hoping that it will bring them to the future they think they need to be ok.
They work.
They fix
They think all the positive thoughts they can.
They try and fight away the monsters and demons…shaming themselves for every perceived misstep.
Every act is an uphill battle because…fuck, the war in them is way too big to manage.
Any hope of ending the war is in the way far out someday when their big dream finally maybe comes true.

Sorry, it doesn’t work that way
Right now is where you can end the war.
Not later when you are desperately hoping all your work will get rid of what you think ails you.

When folks are all tangled in the struggle…trying to run away from here.
Desperate to get there.
They find themselves dying for a big dream that’s not really theirs.
It’s what they think will work.
What they think they should do.
What someone else wants for them.
It’s a path rife with struggle and pain…as they try with all their might to make the aches go away.
But when you choose this moment…when you choose you.
Right now…
You get to listen.
To heed the invitation of your soul’s adventure.
To really see what it is you want your human experience to look like.
You get to create.
You get to make shit happen.
You get to do it because it is what calls to you.
Because it is in your pleasure
Because YOU want to.
Not because in some fairy tale future land there is a promise of making you ok.
You are so much more an ok.
And if you want, you can see that right fucking now.
You are that, right fucking now.



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